Kingsley: 7-1-14 Emotions

I came over all teary today. The thought of leaving my son in the hands of another care-giver near ripped my heart from its place in my chest. An hour this afternoon spent together in tender and undeniable attachment – me, a mother, and her newborn son where we hugged and cuddled and cooed to one another in the family bed, had me weep inconsolably, quietly, at how I cannot bear the thought of leaving my son, to return to work.

Its not for a few months that I am due back from maternity leave (and truth be told I can still make up my mind to stay home as a full-time mum) however the emotions surrounding this complete adoration for Kingsley overwhelmed me today and reduced me to a blubbering mess. I left the sleeping child in bed and came to the living room to get a grip.

Kingsley you are my charming miracle bebe. I grow to love you so much (as if that is even possible!!) that my emotions I fear will burst from my heart. Tonight we wait for your pa to return to us from Kuala Lumpur. I’ll cry on his shoulders, but for you, my angel, I shall remain strong and oh so ready for cuddles…

In Erroll's green turtle onesie (from his own birth in 1978) and hugging teddy gifted by our Dubai friends, the Heitmanns.

In Erroll’s green turtle onesie (from his own birth in 1978) and hugging teddy gifted by our Dubai friends, the Heitmanns.

 

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