I came over all teary today. The thought of leaving my son in the hands of another care-giver near ripped my heart from its place in my chest. An hour this afternoon spent together in tender and undeniable attachment – me, a mother, and her newborn son where we hugged and cuddled and cooed to one another in the family bed, had me weep inconsolably, quietly, at how I cannot bear the thought of leaving my son, to return to work.
Its not for a few months that I am due back from maternity leave (and truth be told I can still make up my mind to stay home as a full-time mum) however the emotions surrounding this complete adoration for Kingsley overwhelmed me today and reduced me to a blubbering mess. I left the sleeping child in bed and came to the living room to get a grip.
Kingsley you are my charming miracle bebe. I grow to love you so much (as if that is even possible!!) that my emotions I fear will burst from my heart. Tonight we wait for your pa to return to us from Kuala Lumpur. I’ll cry on his shoulders, but for you, my angel, I shall remain strong and oh so ready for cuddles…
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